My image of the sun is how I draw depression. The proverb reminds me that though my depression seems as if it is going to go on forever, it has an end. I may not see it, but it is there. There is a famous line that goes: This too shall pass. Right now this feels like a platitude, nevertheless, it is true.

New work

Just finished a four by six inch little drawing about patience. One of the things that often bothers me is my work ethic. I finish a small drawing about every three weeks. I work small so that I am guaranteed to complete a work. Even my ability to complete a work does not free me from a lot of regret. I think that there should be more work. It should be more practiced, more exceptional. One of the things that I deal with as someone who is disabled is a lot of self-recrimination. There is a lot of time spent feeling sorry for myself. If I were Jules Feiffer I could write a cartoon on the subject. I am pretty hard on myself. I don't know why I spend so much time feeling sorry for myself. I guess that for someone with a major disability that is about depression this is just the way things are. But it is not pleasant just the same. Today is a beautiful day. Focus on that. Focus on the fact that God chose to wake me up this morning. Thank God for the air in my lungs. The text of my completed drawing is: The remedy against bad times is to be patient with them. An Arab proverb. Focus on that. I have learned that if I can just focus on gratitude I can make it through the day.