Work in Progress

I spent a good amount of time in the studio today. I worked on the quote from the Qua'ran about loaves of bread and hyacinths. Probably five hours were spent on it. Sometimes I can be a harsh critic. I just did not like the finished product. There are three weeks left to complete seven works. There is a tendency to rush and the results are disappointing. I found out today that three of my works were purchased at the gallery where I sell my work. This is great news. I can't help but be grateful for sales in this economy. I am selling more work now than I've ever sold in the past.
I am reading "Van Gogh Blues" by Eric Maisel. The book focuses on healing depression, something I have struggled with for years. The book talks about finding meaning in ones life as a way to heal from depression. I am not sure that I agree with everything in the book, but it makes sense. My work is devoted to lifting people's spirits. I find meaning in making people smile. But most of the time I don't feel better, even when I hear that someone purchased my work. When I got my check from the gallery today I was really happy. But when I realized that I would have to complete many new works for sale I got depressed. My happiness was short-lived. There is a passage from the Bible sitting on my desk. It is about being thankful. This is God's will for us in Jesus. This is difficult. Finding the good in every situation is not easy. I sometimes take things too seriously. I can see the downside of selling more work than I have ever sold in the past. God tells us to be thankful. Be grateful for the things that are occurring in my life