Trusting the Process

A lot of time is spent in trying to decide what is attainable and what is beyond my grasp. I have been on disability for fifteen years ans sometimes it is impossible to remember what life was like before disability. What can I do? And how do I know if I am being honest with myself? Sometimes there is a tendency to over-intellectualize things. Depression is one of the primary aspect of my disability. It requires the most energy to overcome. It tells me everything is impossible. Why bother trying, you are only going to fail. Spirituality has helped. There is a lot of time spent in getting an attitude of gratitude. So what if I can't do everything I once did. I can still make little contributions to the world around me. I can still create. I can still make art, I am not dead. It takes a lot of time trusting God will get me through the dark times where I am constantly questioning what my limits are. Yes, I am not totally disabled. I can still do many things. So what can I do, and how do I know what is beyond me? I have to trust that God will show me the way, that He will gradually show me my path.