Getting it Right

I wonder sometimes what my strengths are. What is it I do well? The reason I ask this is I have so little going on in my life with my disability. Illness is my job. Disability is my life. I don't like this reality but there it is, my life is about illness. I have been disabled for fifteen years. I have diabetes, asthma, depression and heart disease. Sometimes I wonder if there is hope that I can get my health back in some kind of working order. The heart disease is a recent thing. It probably scares me the most. I know that diabetes and heart disease are not a good combination. I worry about dying a lot. Anyway, what strengths do I bring into this warfare? What am I good at? What do I have inside me that can take on chronic illness? Twenty-four years ago I quit drinking. About the same time I quit smoking. My father was an alcoholic and I was walking the same path. So I quit. I had asthma so I quit smoking. So far I have not had a strong desire to take up these substances. So I know that in me there is the desire to succeed.
I like words. Always have. I like to write. If you ever get into recovery from an addiction of some sort there is a lot of writing involved. At least there was for me. It seems in order to take a good look at your life there has to be a lot of reflection. What brought me to this point? How did my life get so out of control? Writing about yourself is a good way to be introspective. Writing helps you to see yourself in a positive light after lots of internal sizing yourself up.
Getting it right. How do I learn from the past? How do I learn from my old addictions? How do I get healthy from a few chronic illnesses that want to kill me like alcohol and tobacco once did? How do I develop the willingness to fight back and get healthy again?