I took a bunch of photos today of flowers. Today was a rough day. I paid a large amount of money last month for medical costs and it is depressing. My health problems are giving me a lot of grief from the stress of mounting medical bills. Tonight my illness is causing me a lot of stress. I just finished my journal and there does not seem to be any end in sight of the sadness I feel. For seventeen years I have contended with my illness. It gets tiring. It seems that I don't have any answers. A medication I take has the ability to cause depression, it is one of the side-effects. I have avoided this effect for over a week but tonight things came crashing in on me. The little book-mark I made says that nothing causes more problems to creativity and good judgement than bearing grudges. I am so tired of being poor. Medical costs eat up everything I have. I'm not sure who or what I'm angry at. My body perhaps. I used to go to museums all the time. I enjoyed cycling. I liked hiking. It has been years since I have done these things.
I am sorry to end on such a sour note. Hope that you have a great weekend.
May God be with you.... Dale
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